Hey, It's Rikki
Hi there!
My name is Erica, but I go by Rikki because I love when my husband sings
“Hey Rikki you’re so fine, you’re so fine you blow my mind, hey rikki! hey! hey! Hey Rikki!”
Yes, I am married. If you ever meet my husband you would wish he was single. He is more fine than the song says I am and we are sappy in love. He was my rock through the thick of PTSD. I owe him… my sanity, which he probably won’t experience fully until my kids are grown.
On Sundays, we worship Christ as members of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints. Every other day we wish the name of our church wasn’t so long.
I have experienced real hurt in my life that I am willing to talk productively about. I have also experienced lasting healing that I cannot not share.
I believe healing doesn’t have to be done alone.
We are in this together,
xoxo R.B
Either you are going through something or you know someone who is. That should make us all feel unified in pain. Yet, so frequently we feel like people don’t really understand us or our situation.
Simply put, I hope this space helps you feel like you don’t have to be alone in your hurt. I hope you enjoy getting to know the parts of my story where God healed me from my really damaging experiences. I believe he wants that for everyone.
By asking questions and sharing my life, we’ll all get to listen to God, our instincts, and each other. I love that part of being here.
Feel free to anonymously send in questions you have on the main page!
Can’t wait to get to know you better. Thanks for being here!
For a long while I was in pain. The repercussions of being severely manipulated in a relationship, betrayed by someone I thought I knew, and emotionally and sexually abused definitely had its’ affect on me. In the thick of those moments, my most ominous feelings were rooted in loneliness. Even if people had experienced something similar, they hadn’t known that man, or had my background, or been hurt exactly the way I was.
Through it all, I have found ways to listen to my body and its’ emotional needs, set crucial boundaries, empathize with others who are hurting, and heal my own relationship with God. After finally accessing healing, (therapy, hard conversations, family support, and my own spiritual epiphanies) I can’t sit silent. The things I learned by this horrific experience have the potential of helping others who currently sit alone in their hurt.
I hope together, we can take time to listen to our own needs, to God’s voice, and to each other a little longer and a little better. Taking that time to listen to God and one another can change lonely into love and confusion into clarity. That there is worth every second!
How do I move on from something that hurt me so badly?
How do I let friends be there for me without feeling like a burden?
Do I really need therapy? How long will therapy take?
How do I access the healing power of God that I believe is there?
How can I trust anyone ever again?
Will I ever return to feeling normal (no flashbacks, etc)?
How do you let go of the opinions of others?
What does God really think of my life?
How do I forgive my perpetrator?
How do I protect myself from future pain and attacks? Can I?