My Balled Up Emotions

Today’s emotion was anxiety. This poem is what I decided to do with the mahhhhh inside of me. The thought of finding calm in the middle of a anxious moment is sometimes the start I need to less anxious driven thoughts.

My Balled Up Emotions
Written by Rikki Brase

A ball of fluff
It floats in a clear bin
Air wizzing through the box 
causing commotion, 
unstoppable motion. 
                                           My felt anxiety. 

Turn off the air 
My brain then pleads
Turn off the air 
The ball will calm

But I can't, I just can’t
The ball is doing 
something, Can't you see
Without the air 
It will be useless
                                           Unheard, unseen

Uncontrolled, the ball spins
Hitting walls with 
Aimless blows, swirling fast
Then slow

Air contains all power
Moments later my brain sees
It is air that is doing something
Not the ball as it weeees

I turn off the air. 
The ball stills. 
I pick it up
I can finally throw

Throw it with intention
Throw it with aim
Throw it with joy
Or anger, or pain 

The ball that sits in my palm
Changes owners sometimes
But air and I decided 
That tonight it is mine

My turn to decide to 
set ball on the shelf 
My turn to sleep uncontrolled
By my ball, 
                                            Felt.