We’re All Trying!

Journal Entry 2 August 2019 –

“I’m stuck in this thought that we go through life just waiting to find answers. It’s like they are these things that we won’t get no matter how hard we try, unless God says, “Okay, fine! I’ll tell you”. But then His answer seems encrypted and we spend the rest of life trying to discern the meaning of that divine response. Is that how it is?”

A while back a tragic event happened in my life. The pain of it all made me wonder questions like, “Why didn’t God help me? Why can’t God take it away, erase it forever? Am I being punished? Did I do something to deserve this?

I think normally people want to hear they didn’t do anything wrong. I was the opposite.

What I really wanted was to be told I was being punished for a specific action. Because that meant that I could fix it or prevent it in the future. If I was the problem then all I would have to do is never do that action again and all things horrible would leave.

Taking responsibility would give me a sense of control – the kind of control where I could make other people stop doing wrong, and be safe from all harm.

I soon found that kind of control doesn’t exist. God doesn’t even have it. Turns out that kind of control is natural to want, but impossible to attain. That thought ticked me off, quite frankly! It made me feel helpless. If I can’t control my life, what am I here for? What is my job? How can I avoid unnecessary hurt? How can I dictate what I experience if I can’t control everything?

When facing these questions, I felt trapped and unmotivated. So, I came up with a method for myself to live by.

1. Get up!
2. Try to do good!
3. Never back down.

This method seems too simple, right? Sometimes the simplest things make a big difference, though. They did for me. Committing to these three simple steps created what I like to call the “Try-it” attitude.

Try to stay by God.

Try to understand.

Try to have faith.

Try to not give up.

Tragedies will happen in our lives. They may be happening in yours currently. If so, please know this:

We may not be able to stop the bad, but we can do good. Focus on that, and answers will come.

If you, like me, have questions that you haven’t found answers to, SEND ‘EM HERE! If nothing else, somebody may need to know they are not alone in their wonder!

Thanks for joining in!