God Said I am ENOUGH!

Throughout this thing called life
Mirrors reflection blurs the mind
Yet battles growth knew something
of the life I left behind

I've had my days - good and bad
tears, joy, sad, mad, love
The thought once crossed maybe twice 
Did I seek that pure white dove? 

I knew my true intentions
I hoped to do okay
I wasn't some awful murderer
Who struggled to know night from day

But really let's look back
Honest reflection, nows the time
I want to know what my God thinks
Of these efforts I call mine

So I kneel down slightly nervous
For I know my God can't lie
Mistakes' memory almost perfect
Witnesses being the passersby

Mustering up heart's courage
My words cease behind closed lips
Finally! My prison break,
God, forgive my ignorance...

I look back at life's stretch
Lots of thoughts fighting for the win
But the one I see crossing first
Are you proud of who I've been?

Moments pass of silence
Will the heavens hear my sound
That doubt then meets its death 
As my heart begins to pound

A feeling in my heart
Then a thought in my mind
My child, you've changed all too much
To let Lucifer's tempters bind

God heard my faithful plea
Hope came and formed a crowd
In heaven's sure reply
His whisper became loud

Remember two millenia ago? 
Christ asked, remove the bitter cup
I replied with no applaud or sound 
'Cause My love was within His rut

Did I leave Him all alone? 
Did I forget my Beloved Son? 
The answer is in the peace I sent 
In the days after Christ had gone

In silence there is power
It gives you time to think
Silence asks the question:
Do you believe in what you seek?

Divine peace conquers worry
Divine love is my bind
Divine laws demand effort
My mercy is aligned

My dearest child, I hear you
I see the person you've become
I think not on the errs because 
your heart beats for my Son

Inspiration for this poem: Often times in life we wonder where we stand with God. This poem came at a time when I hadn’t felt God’s influence in my life for a bit. I would pray often but felt like there was no answer. It made me wonder where I stood with God. Was I too far away from him? Is that why I couldn’t hear him? Had the life I had lived not been good enough? I sat down and with my whole heart plead with God to give me something. The answer came in these words.